I sometimes really hate pictures. In essence, pictures are supposed to remind you of the past. Some might say that they are meant to remind you of the good times you had, and they wouldn't be wrong. However, they also remind you of the bad. Occasionally, I take a look at old pictures. Whether last year or four years ago, I always kind of feel lost, maybe even lonely. I think about all the people I didn't know then, the lives that have impacted mine, and the relationships that have been severed. I even think about the music that I didn't listen to... Like Mayday Parade and Lonely Island... Anyway, I had to wrestle myself out of that "stink" of an attitude and jump into the idea that the path I'm on is THE path that I'm on. There is no other paths. No regrets. I'm proud of my life. I'm proud of my friends. All of them. I love them dearly. The good parts and the bad. I just look back and think about missed opportunities and broken relationships. I'm sad for those lost relationships but the Tao Te Ching says, "... all can see beauty as beauty only because there is ugly." I believe that with all my heart. Everything in my life, the good and the bad, have prepared me for this very moment. I am the most prepared I could be. I'm ready. I've been immersing myself in the life of the Tao and I've learned many things. A. It's not much different than the Bible. (In your face fundamentalist Christianity.) B. Life is balance. The latter being the most important, I realize that life is a complicated thing: Delicate in its nature and sensitive in its personality. Everything effects the outcome. The journey determines your destination. Okay, all that to say this:
I will never settle. I will never compromise myself, or force others to compromise themselves. I will never turn off the possibilities of love and its power. I will always strive to be better. I will always stand up for my friends. I will always believe in justice. I will always make choices based on the present. I will stand up for the weak and broken-hearted and never deviate from my beliefs.
I want anyone reading this to know that I didn't say this for you. Like any good, un-read blog, this is for myself. If you read this, thank you. I hope you received a revelation from my revelation. I mostly said this, however, to remind myself. To remind myself of who I am and who/what I love. Thank you for reading.
